Yup.

Mi mancano i colori e le risate e l'odore. (L'odore!) Io sto perdendo. And all that jazz.

One more for March.

Ok, let's do this again. I have an idea or something. Or rather Coleridge had an idea and I'm adopting it and keeping it warm for a while. From now on I'm filling my life with more incredible events and random challenges. I'm embracing the fact that life is not here to please us or make us happy, it's here for us to fill with awesomeness in every sense of the word. So instead of being sad, we can be How I met your mother-awesome instead. In true medieval manner, I hereby challenge the people who read this (probs not many, but you are at least the/my chosen few. Yup, you should feel special) to do something awesome every day. Listen, I don't mean that you should cure cancer or take a ride on a dragon's back every SINGLE day or anything. You can do that every other Friday. But I'm thinking in terms of challenging yourself and dreaming and filling your life with what you really feel like doing. The difficult part is maybe to inspire yourself or know where to find that inspiration. I guess it can be anywhere or in anyone. And hey, who am I fooling, it is me we're talking about here: I say you find it in and fill life with inspiring people, a couple of glasses of wine and reading something or doing something that makes your eyes sparkle and your ears flap. I'm trying. And for God's sake, I'll try and smile while doing it too. In? - Cheerio.

Structured emotions.

These thoughts have emerged through good conversation and/or while intoxicated. In or out? Your call.

Here goes.

Emotions are chaotic, unstable and messy. When strong and crazy enough, they leave you with no easy answer, no one clear train of thought or coherent contemplation. Also emotions very rarely travel alone. Oftentimes they are accompanied by conflicting emotions trying to make you torn and uncertain about how you really feel. Emotions have no structure or logic. They are figments of our imaginations, strong sensations inside our minds and hearts and make us display the worst and best sides to our personalities.

With this in mind one can argue against the rationality of romantic relationships making up our way of life. Feelings and emotions are never rational or structured. The paradox is that romantic relationships (steady ones that is) are. This is not an argument for banning relationships as a whole. It is simply an observation that may be the starting point to changing some of the expectations people in general have towards relationships and what we call love. Emotions can not be lead in any one direction, people can't really control what they feel or try to feel something they don't. By doing so one can suffer from nausea, anxiety, headaches and arrogance.

Maybe this structuring of emotions is a necessity in order to make our society function. Maybe we can't get away from our culture's romantization of romantic relationships. Presently they are indeed the foundation on which our culture and lives are paved. Nonetheless I truly believe people should be more true to their emotions and not be restrained by any relationship. I believe that is the pursuit of happiness. I believe freedom should not be restrained, not even by the people we have these wild raging emotions for. I for one can't structure how I feel and I'm not sure I want to either.