attacking life?

let's do this my way or the high way. 'cause even though you think I'm doing things wrong or seizing opportunities in an odd way, it doesn't mean I should change. right now my thoughts are: I'm only twenty (and I'm gonna act twenty), I'm weirder than the average bear (and I'm gonna be me), you're my friend and I respect your words and input. but still I'm not you. in fact we're probably the two people no-one would ever have expected to become friends. I'm happy we are though, 'cause you're important and annoying.

I'm attacking life, I guess. I'm letting go for once and that's why and when my fall will be higher and harder than ever. maybe that's why you're questioning the whole thing. but I'm alone now, and I've never really been alone. at least not completely. so now my learning-curve is probably gonna go through the roof and my feelings and emotions are basically riding some damned roller-coaster. I need you to come along for the ride and I'm gonna grow more than you've ever seen anyone grow in a year. this is the way to blue, life is the way to living.

While Waiting

in the midst of a long wait, why not put down a few words on...waiting? and not the bad kind of waiting, let's talk about the good kind. the kind that makes you more of a person, the kind that can produce strength of character and take you to the top of the next hill or to the bottom of the coming pit. and pits aren't bad, they're only the lowest lows leading you to a peak. or something like that. but let's dive into the great kind of waiting - the expectations and the art of patience.

to start off the thing is that there are two kinds of waiting. there's the passive and the active. if you passively wait, that's simply a matter of being lazy. and usually no hopes are produced in such a state. in addition productivity and dreamers are normally not exactly offspring of laziness.

but to keep on going, keep waiting once the bushes and torns in the middle of your path are slowing you down, making your journey harder and less creative - that's patience. and if you can endure through the days of hardship and bushes, then what you're waiting for, the result of patience, is probably worth while. what we are waiting for is probably also out there waiting for us. perhaps even what we want - what we've created in our minds during the wait - is out there wanting us back. just a thought anyways.

tudles! Camilla